Fear and questions. Just turn on the news, listen to a friend, overhear a colleague or listen to your own thoughts and you likely hear both fear and questions in all of them. What happens when we look outside of ourselves for the answers and all we get is more fear and more questions? It's time to look inside.
This week, I have been pushing when I know I need to flow- pushing to get my energetic optimism back. There is nothing that feels more fulfilling than to be working in union with my own heart- to look around and literally feel thankful for every little thing- the sunshine peeking through the dark clouds, a bug crawling across the carpet that's saved and let outside by a friend rather than being stomped, clean clothes and a sweet smile from a stranger. If you haven't experienced this lately, I assure you that it is possible and truly lovely to drive down the highway, noticing the sky change and the promise of springtime - appreciating that the bare tree limbs are teeming with energy on the inside- buds that will shoot forth after a period of dormancy. However, when you love experiencing life on that level, and your energy runs amuck, it feels pretty frightening. Pushing to return to that vibration is a normal response, but it misdirects us- opens us up to energies that might make matters more murky.
This week, I had a pretty extreme example of this. Let me tell you what added to my haywire week- allowing outside influences to tell me about my life, stir up fear, and then request money for the removal of that fear. You read that right.
Through social media, I was contacted by a priest from another country. While I believe that it is possible for a human all the way across the world to hear the call I made to the universe, angels and ancestors for clarity, I was tempted to allow this person to perform a cleansing on my behalf. I was curious about the process, the rituals and the work that is performed by other people and in other customs. That is, until I found out the price tag. I responded that I felt very thankful for this kind offer, but that I also felt I could remove any blockages and cleanse myself. After my response, I got another message, this one instilling fear and distrust. The message I received foretold of evil enemies who'd stop at nothing to bring me down.
Of course, if you are a sensitive person and you hear these words, it feels a bit frightening. BUT, my own inner wisdom kept piping up- standing up to this fear. "Out" it whispered. "Out" it spoke. "Out" it shouted. I knew I needed to regain my own power and to stop allowing negativity to creep into my energy. So, that night I meditated on it. I consulted my own inner voice. I thanked the universe for doing as it had always done- showing me the ways to a good life- allowing ME to receive my own path. I asked, prayed and envisioned my body, family and community protected, clean, pure and powerful.
I pulled an "Oracle Essence" card (www.theenchantress.com.au). I pulled a Crystal Angel card (Doreen Virtue). I pulled three cards from the Good Tarot. My essences: Litsea and Cedarwood were reminding me that I can trust and simply connect with others (no need to fear others taking me down). They also shared the promise of abundance in the works for me (what's not to like about those messages?).
My crystal was watermelon tourmaline- a card that encourages stress relief and making space in my schedule- a message to de-clutter the schedule and turn to nature, hobbies and other things that bring me joy.
You might imagine how deeply thankful I felt as each layer unfolded. A strong sense of knowing that I can trust myself was emerging.
The first card pulled from the Good Tarot was the High Priestess- she carries the message about trusting your divine wisdom and knowing that you are able to uncover mysteries when you trust your vibes. Mic drop.
The second card- the 10 of water is a sweet little Buddha who assures that all is well in our world, that well being is our natural state.
Lastly, the 6 of fire. This beautiful card is a message that through modeling our own transformation, we put a light at the top of a hill- allowing others to find their way. We can be aware of how others may not like the limelight or basking in the shadows, but its time to bless them and renew our faith that we are contributing to the highest good of the world.
So, let me leave you with that faith and hope.... and a little affirmation.
Maybe you have no cards to consult. That's ok. You can still sit quietly or move in nature. You can practice dancing or yoga or breathing. Anything that allows you to turn up the volume on your heart and your inner voice. Here is an affirmation to repeat when you feel your energy is being influenced toward the negative:
"I no longer need to allow unwelcome influences into my space. I can honor my boundaries by refusing them."
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Love and peace,
Intuitive mother, writer, teacher, wellness coach, daughter, wife, friend and advocate for true belonging and self love.