There is a stirring inside my soul.
It wakes me with the sunshine. It plants my being into the earth, straightening my spine,
As I lift my heart and open my ribcage, the beat, beat, beat has begun a new rhythm.
It is freeing.
It is stretching my hair to the sky,
my soles to the ground,
my limbs to the east and west like the horizon.
In my once closed palms, there is a dust
blowing clean on the breeze
the remnants of heartache, I'd been carrying like two leaden weights
cracked open and dissolving at my feet
The realization that something solid was merely hollow
On my exhale, I release all anger, the resentment of realizing what I thought was real
I forgive and release.
I make space for new seeds, new growth, a hardier flower- one that will weather the winter of New England-
one that promises through wind and rain, snow and freeze that it will bloom in the spring time.
I step into a new day- one that hasn't been defined yet, one free of illusion.
I let go of that which held me down.
Love yourself today.
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For the past two weeks, life has been very challenging. I've been stretched to the limit as a mother, a human, a friend. Simple tasks have been daunting. I have made mistakes that most aware human adults wouldn't make. Not life or death mistakes- but simple, stupid, frustrating ones.
I've been searching for the ways to navigate this heartache. My workouts have helped. Meditation has been more laborious, but helps when I get there. The sunshine has helped. Family has helped. Friends... well, truth be told, I only opened up to a few about what has been happening and one, only one, has reached out regularly to help. By help, I mean, simply checking in- showing love.
People are busy. Life is complicated. As I consider the rabbit hole of- am I not a good enough friend to others.... don't I deserve love and care? I remember three little girls I took under my wing for 2 and a half years for a friend as she struggled with cancer. I remember the family we delivered meals to and took time to invite their son so they could heal from injury. I recall the friend, who in a similar situation, we offered rides, food, childcare. I DO deserve good friends.
So, here I am... searching to understand why I feel so alone? I haven't forgotten my one person who has been like family and checked in every single day- since learning about what is going on. What of the others?
A Course in Miracles would say that every relationship is a mirror about how we feel about ourself. Maybe I've attracted this? Either way, the judgements I make now are also a reflection of myself. So, instead of judging and feeling isolated, I am vowing to make a different choice.
I am choosing to see love instead of anger. I can't promise that I'm not hurt and sad. Dear inner guide, please help me in this process.
I know that all friendships serve different purposes, and I am not crossing anyone off of my list. BUT, I am also learning through this. I'm sure there have been times my friends were in need and I didn't reach out enough- didn't show up for them. This is a lesson about who I want to be going forward for my friends. This is a lesson to have gratitude for the people who DO show up. A simple text- a lunch sent to the house, a hug emoji- small moments of care that let me know there is hope. This is a lesson to be patient but also, to recognize the place I hold for the people I thought loved me. For some, love maybe more conditional than I thought. For others, they may just be too busy to remember to show it. Either way, we are all human.
Tonight, I will spend more time in meditation. I will send light and love to all of my circles- knowing that I can't choose for others who they'll show up for me, but wanting in my heart, to be a truly loving friend no matter what. Tonight, I will focus my attention on gratitude for all I now learn.
Today, I see all of my relationships as learning opportunities.
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The sun woke me up this morning. The bedroom blinds were ajar and birdsong floated in through the opening in the window pane. It's Easter morning and I want to be more optimistic and hopeful this morning. Not... as in.. more hopeful than unusual... not as in.. super high vibes versus high. This is the kind of morning, I'd usually wake up eager to face the day- but the truth is- there have been challenges lately.
The challenges have been so great that I don't feel ready to share them. In large part, because they aren't just my story, but the story of others I love, too. This morning, while the birdsong played, my first thought was- I don't want to get up. I don't want to face this day. I don't know how to face any of the days.
It's a sharp contrast to the life I try to live. They say that once you've learned to live in high vibes, a slight dip in them can feel unbearable. I believe this is true.
Now, Easter grass is strewn on the floor and I need to reach for something to restore my alignment. The past week, I've been so stretched thin, the anger, the frustration, the judgment... it's all rushed back and I've felt everything dark I don't want to- most dark- the fear.
So, May Cause Miracles, is a short meditative practice to support a heart that needs to realign. I need to shed the negative... breathe in love again. Today, I release my unkind thoughts and feelings to return to the truth- that love is stronger than fear.
Gabby suggests making a list of kind things we've done for others and forgiving ourselves for the negative. As we soften our judgement toward ourselves, we begin to dissolve our judgement of others. An inner awareness and opening is key.
So, if you wish you'd bounded out of bed to welcome the springtime, the Easter bunny, the sunrise- but instead, you felt sad, alone or angry...take a moment to look yourself in the eyes (in the mirror) and remember that we were born from kindness and we are kind beings. The shift in remembering our kindness through the grace we give ourselves and offer the world might set the stage for a fresh new wave of gratitude, and lead us to a more inspired morning tomorrow. I listened, I reflected and my spirit feels a bit lighter.
Today is a fresh day to come back home to a happier heart.
As Trevor Hall, one of my favorite spiritual artists sings, "Don't you carry stones in your bowl of light."
Today, I release some of those stones to lighten my load and shine a little bit again.
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Today, we recognize the ways we have separated ourselves from others and we release the attack, judgement, or idolization to our inner guide. As we notice the feeling that others are less than or more than because of their personal appearance, their relationships or for any other reason, we can affirm that we are willing to surrender that false belief to our inner guide.
Willingness Meditation from Gabby:
Breathe in and out gently.
Breathe in "I am willing to surrender my ego to my inner guide." Breathe out, "I am ready to let go of my false perceptions."
Breathe in, "I am willing to see oneness in all." Breathe out. "I am ready to see love."
Breath in, "I am willing to surrender my ego to my inner guide. " Breathe out. "I am ready to let go of my false perceptions."
Breathe in. "I am willing to see oneness in all." Breathe out, " I am ready to see love."
Try this meditation at bedtime and allow your inner guide to support your release of any judgements made by the ego today.
Love yourself, love others the same.
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Take that in. Just breathe it in. You are worthy despite the to-do list and despite the to-done list, too. We humans have been trained to measure the value of the day based on a series of tasks completed. There is no adult-fairy flying over us with a gold star to measure our completion, our accuracy, our level of drive.
These are words I really have to repeat in my mind and let them sink into my heart. As I'm coming off of a long stretch of 15 hour days and working weekends, I am reminded that there is a season to sew and a season to harvest. Without rest, we can't rebuild. Without pause, we can't see and appreciate the fullness of our world- a world we are often fighting so hard for.
Breathing, creating space for peace will provide us with the space to enjoy and honor our lovable nature. In that space, we often find ourselves smiling more, affectionate, expanding. We were born to be loved and abundant, joyful and playful without strings attached. It's our human ego that makes us feel as though we are always behind.
My parents always said, "You can't take it with you when you go." They meant the toys, the money, the material things. This also holds true for our to-do list and our to-done list. We can't take with us the folded laundry or the freshly swept floors or the quota met. So, then, why not breathe and make memories? Why not allow ourselves more joy and less stress?
If you are someone who is able to do this regularly, what are your tricks? I want to learn from you. This is a goal. This is a mantra. This is a seed I'm sewing so that it can flourish and fruit in my life. I'll be using my Hope rollerball and allowing the oils of worthiness to support my mind and my heart as I move into this fresh space of peace.
Love yourself today.
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As we enter into the next seven days of the May Cause Miracles Challenge, we are asked to reflect on how we wrongly judge, attack and idolize others. This action is related to our sense of separation from others on this Earth. A Course in Miracles teaches us to think of ourselves as one with everything... we are all made from energy and we all impact one another. On a deeper level, we are like the water in the ocean that has been poured into separate buckets. Our energy maybe "contained" in a sense, so our ego walks around thinking it is separate. But, when released, the energy rejoins everything else... like pouring the water back into the ocean it came from. It goes even deeper than that because we can begin to think of ourselves as united even in the illusion of being contained.
When we judge or attack others, therefor, we attack ourselves. We create division and isolation. This is something that humans (myself included) struggle with all the time. When I judge and attack, I feel terrible. Maybe because on some level, it is a self-created wound. We know that negative attracts negative. We have to break out of that cycle.
How? Gabby recommends that we first notice. We become aware of the attack, the judgement. This also works with our noticing the adoration we may feel for others. If we idolize others, we are making them seem more special- and again- separate. Once we notice our patterns, we can allow our inner knowing to support our forgiveness, release and open ourselves back up to love of self and love of others in a more unified way.
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For this moment, I invite you to unburden your heart.
Lay down your guilt. Set it beside you. Just allow it to rest. I know how hard it works to convince us that we need it.
Don't worry, you don't need to let it go too far away...
These pandemic times, this vocation, this life has both armored us and cracked us open. Your guilt can take a back seat for now. Take a breath. Let's exhale our guilt.
Teachers, I invite you to place your shame beside your guilt.
All those decisions you had to make- all the torment over things you couldn't do, all of the practices you "should" have done...all of the changes you've been asked to make- illnesses you couldn't prevent. The eyes that watch and make you feel that you "should" have all the answers. I know they say you should leave school at school, but shame comes home with you in your backpack, doesn't it.
Please tell shame it's time to sleep- it's time to hush. Tell shame it doesn't serve you.
Teachers, I invite you to breathe. Put your feet up if you can, take off your shoes if you can, take off your bra if you can... whatever makes you feel more relaxed, more at ease, more unencumbered. Take down your hair, unclench your jaw. Let your toes wiggle and spread out.
Notice that air as it travels in through your nose... that air that fills your lungs, that air that helps you expand. Feel that air swirling and spinning, lit up with the white light of hope.
Allow that air to capture any negativity, dread, weight, toxins, drama, leftover anger, remnants of the day like the crumbs from your lunchbox... See that air removing it all and set it free.
Feel the air move out of your lungs and release all of that garbage.. all of the fear... all of the worries....
Like the tide, your breath comes in and out. Let it flow. The tide comes, the breath comes in. The tide goes, the breath goes out.
Teachers, I invite you to unburden your heart. Set aside all that no longer serves you. Feel weightless. For a short period of time, you have no one who needs you more than you. Be here now.
Be here. This is the time. Pause now. This is the place. Your heart is the place.
Place beside your shame and your guilt your perfectionism. Your inner critic. Your nagging insecurity.
To teach is to touch a life, to convince ourselves that we must have all the answers as those little eyes have led us to believe. To teach is to solve problems and to juggle a million decisions in the blink of an eye. To teach is a superpower- and yet we are humans, humans who sometimes feel as if we are doggy paddling in a rapidly moving stream.
Unburden your heart. Despite the heroic task you've been granted- the faith giver, the healer, the mentor, the model, the parent, the truth seeker, the knowledge source, the dream weaver- despite it all...
It is your humanity that makes you magical.
It is your story, your truth, your acceptance of your mistakes and your honoring of your spirit.
It is the way you look children in the eyes and see them. The simple, human gift of presence.
It is the vulnerability and the weaving of values... the knowing that we will fail a million times and still stand up one more time if it means we made a difference.
No god or hero would take on such a task as we do. They wouldn't set themselves up to fail. They become idols because they always win.
That is why, dear teacher- you must unburden your heart. You have already taken on more than a super hero would.. because you are human. You have worked to exhaustion because you are human.
You are magic, because you are human.
And humans need rest.
And let all that other stuff go.
I invite you to be here now.
Days have passed and I haven't been listening to my May Cause Miracles Challenge. Yet, like the yoga sutras I study, the lessons stay with me. Each day is an opportunity to practice- to see our truth, to love ourselves, to let go of fear and judgement. As time continues marching on, so too, does our soul and inner strength evolve. This body is strengthening because I am listening to it. Are you?
Today, recognize the moments you've offered yourself grace and love. Notice how it translates to less judgement of others as separation is an illusion. If it's difficult to love the body you're in... this mission continues. Keep looking- looking for the light in your eyes and the remembrance of your miraculous essence. You deserve to be happy, feel whole, expand and to breathe. You're exactly where you are meant to be right now. There is no rush and nothing to prove. Breathe in love, breathe out fear. Keep going, keep growing.
PS A great diffuser blend for empowerment: ginger, wild orange, patchouli
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I can't help but think that Glennon Doyle was inspired by the ancient poet and philosopher, Rumi, when she wrote this section of her book, Untamed.
In this part, she was expressing to her daughter- the one she used to tell all the time that she'd "never lose her (mom)"- until Glennon realized she'd sold her a lie. Her new teaching became- "The truth is, you will lose me one day. You will never lose YOU." This left the daughter to shore up her inner workings and delve into a relationship with herself- hopefully one in which she befriends her inner voice and loves the essence of her spirit. Yet, her daughter started feeling isolated, alone in her own feelings, her own body- keenly aware that she was the only "person" she'd truly be with in life. The quote Glennon shared is meant to assure- despite your feelings, you are never truly contained- you are part of something larger, more united, more collective than you know. "You, are not the bucket, but the ocean."
I turn to this quote now, feeling alone in myself. Feeling a little bit afraid.
Rumi said, "You are not a drop in the ocean, you are the entire ocean in a tiny drop." Taking in the expansive nature of this is comforting, and yet, the outside world doesn't always show this to be true. The people we respect, love and trust may turn away from us if we disagree with them. When we walk with integrity, intention and authenticity- some will not only be out of alignment- but they will turn their back and instruct others to do the same. Some will be afraid- offended- feel attacked by our truth.
Finding our bravery in this wilderness is often courage in that sensation of aloneness- wondering if we will find our tribe- be loved fully- make an impact. How can we make an impact if we are sent away- marginalized- left out, left alone?
My heart is aching a little bit as today, I feel that way- a bit of a drop of water rather than the ocean. I feel filled with questions about whether or not I make an impact, bring light, spread joy. I know I'm living according to my values- but it IS lonely sometimes.
So what to do? Becoming someone we aren't isn't an option when we've worked so hard to reveal who we are. There fore, we have to dig deep, into that well of faith. We have to know that the misaligned relationships from the past, have been cleared for us. This clearing is providing an opportunity for the truly aligned to step forward, to create new partnerships - to develop new rhythms and patterns that are healthy and whole.
We have to BELIEVE and we have to take action to LOVE ourselves. We have to seek movement and find more joy in the little things we can. Like the person who sends herself flowers to brighten her own day- we have to do that OVER and OVER again until we believe so fully in our own LOVE.
When we develop this store of faith in ourselves, we find our path will show us the other spirits- ready to walk it with us- in friendship and honesty- in respect and appreciation.
We are the ocean. We are as much connected to the people who've cleared away as the people who'll been attracted to it. We are as much connected to the sky and the trees as the flowers that bloom and the rain that will fall. We are as much day as we are night. We have to focus on the things that bring us the most joy and allow the rest to simply be-
a part of that truth, but not the ruling part.
In faith and hope that we all know our worth today.
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Holding on to the hurt of the past doesn't help us. The pain of being harmed may initially teach us how to protect ourselves or those we love from people who do not have our best interest in mind, but after some time, we may build it up to be something that undermines the spirit. It's like the tumbling snowball that gains more and more snow- growing heavier and colder as it rolls downhill. I can picture an old, animated movie in mind right now- and know the giant snowballs that freeze inside our spirit- the ones that need to melt.
Sometimes the sadness and anger we harbor is founded, but it has a shelf life. It isn't meant to be nurtured and grown. Sometimes the disappointment and heartache is caused by someone or a circumstance that never meant to hurt us at all- that was well intentioned even. In that case, the rumination and wound is not only harmful, it is self-inflicted.
Letting go of the pain isn't always easy, but in time, we can offer forgiveness to the person or circumstances that created the pain for us. When we do, we can also acknowledge the choice we made to pay attention, to believe, to grow or to react to the incident in the first place. We have to forgive ourselves for believing it was necessary and for the time spent in discomfort.
One morning, recently, I woke up and knew the forgiveness I needed to offer was essential to my overall health. I am not one to harbor resentments often and I needed to move through it. If the forgiveness of the other person was to work for me, I needed to also offer myself the same. I communicated loving thoughts to myself and shared the words I needed to offer to an individual. I don't want others to be in pain or carry around wounds that I've added to. I want my sphere of influence to be a healing one. After sharing with the individual, I let go. This involves breathing, giving myself a hug, and applying my forgive oil. I went for a run. I meditated and I visualized both parties (myself and this individual) happier, healthier, more abundant. I pictured the person's face smiling- joyful. It felt good. It felt freeing.
At night, I knew there could be remnants of the stagnant energy. I reapplied forgive to my abdomen, my inner arms, wrist creases. I breathed it in. I thanked the universe and asked for continued healing and the removal of negative feelings around the circumstances. I asked for healing for the person involved in this situation- knowing full well that this person may or may not need it, but it is my highest intention to heal and to offer love. This person may never respond or offer the same to me. It doesn't matter.
So, today, I sit here and I can honestly say that I love myself a little bit more. I love myself a little bit better. I feel a lot freer because I gave this gift to myself. Forgiveness is worth it. You are worth it.
Who can you forgive today?
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