It was another tough morning- but I got through it. The early angst about how to get back to that high vibe state caused me to lay there, in the darkness longer. It was long enough to realize a few good things in my life- amongst the many.
My youngest had fallen asleep in my arms. He's in that in between stage where he isn't quite ready to be a tween and he wants to watch horror flicks that scare me into nightmares. He's brave and still wants to be nurtured. Sometimes, when I reach back into the backseat of the car, he gently holds my hand while I drive.
There's a beautiful reason to wake up and face the day.
The coffee was strong and bitter, but it woke me just enough to remember I needed water. I'm on day two of a cleanse for my body and water is crucial for the supplements to help me detox.
The water with lemon oil was fresh enough to help me recall the trash that needed to be toted to the curb- and quickly- so that the stink from the week could be toted somewhere totally different- free from us.
It's not glamorous, but in my red plaid jammies from Christmas and my son's slide sandals, I trudged to the curb with the heavy plastic bins, filled with remnants of our consumerism. The breeze stirred my hair and the air felt lukewarm. Later, it would rain.
That was enough to remind me that I needed the therapy of a run.
On and on my day has gone- a ripple effect of one aware moment leading to another. It wasn't long before I ran my 20 minute Breakaway, run- that I realized I had more strength than I thought, and I found more awareness, more honesty.
Today, I vow to remain honest and aware, truthful and kind. Today, I realize that this existence- with it's flaws, challenges and triumphs- with it's stinking trash and polished counter tops is much more valuable than painting a picture of perfection that isn't mine to claim.
Today, I vow to perpetuate raw honesty as a form of beauty rather than the flashy smiles and artificial proverbs we see- bombarding us on the daily basis. I'd rather be known and help others feel safe to be known than to attract masses with my fairytale that only makes others look upon their lives with a sense of false insecurity. No one lives a fairy tale- and it's just that- a tale.
Today, I will appreciate that which I already have. Today I will appreciate my voice and my truth.
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Intuitive mother, writer, teacher, wellness coach, daughter, wife, friend and advocate for true belonging and self love.