Sometimes we have old hurts and resentments- we carry them around like a forgotten pack of gum in the back corner of that old coat. Heck, we even forgot that pocket existed. BUT, the gum is still there... it's been there, through the wash, the dry, the hot, the cold, the years... hardening. It serves no purpose at all, until one day we reach into the dryer and find that hardened clump has re-warmed and attached it to half the load of laundry... then it is a reminder of that small, unfinished business resurrected. Now, it's a real pain. Its a loss.
We can sort through and find what's worthy of keeping- if anything and toss the rest. Our old resentments are not needed. They serve no purpose at all- so why allow them to stick around- and soil the good? Why wear them on our sleeve? Why wear them across the chest? It's time to move on.
Each of life's challenges- no matter how we handled them- have been teachers. It's uncomfortable to look back at them and feel embarrassed, guilty or wrong. But, if we detach and remind ourselves that all of those feelings are merely our decision to remain in fear, then we can forgive ourselves now for that choice. We chose the fear so we can choose the love.
Today's affirmation: "I forgive myself for having this thought. I choose love instead."
Gabby's advice: "As fear, judgement and guilt creep up, repeat your meditation. You are not your fear- see it as a projection of ego, not you. Choose not to repeat the negativity, attack, and self criticism."
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