Part of the inside of my cheek is chewed raw from grinding my teeth.
I'm unreliable, distractible and irrational, too.
Some moments I feel sunlight on water joy
and other times, I am literally doggy paddling while the waves crash
and a water spout forms around me.
The undercurrent is pulling and I am simply taking deep breaths when I can.
I am grateful for the few brave souls willing to carry a red donut and a long rope.
I'm looking for my toe hold to pull myself out of the water- the moment my paddling turns into a swim.
I know it will happen, that this is a place I don't like to visit- let alone live in.
But, today, is an undercurrent day and I am just doggy paddling.
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